Apparently I’ve lost my sanity.
Today I interrupted a family conversation in which someone was announcing that a relative, in their 30s, has breast cancer. Another relative had a heart attack and was diagnosed with cancer almost simultaneously. Another has Multiple Sclerosis which has deteriorated significantly in recent months. A neighbour fell down in the street due to a pulmonary embolus and now has rapidly deteriorating dementia. Another relative had a stroke, another had new presentation of epilepsy. Another neighbour has terminal cancer. Someone else is suddenly so sick that they’re on renal dialysis. Various others have had strokes, heart disease, Parkinsonianism, scares with benign tumours, pneumonia, etc. All within the last two years.
These health events are the main topic of conversation now. But because it’s cancer in a 30s-yo, dementia in a 70s’-yo, heart attack in a 50s-yo, etc, noone is connecting any dots to the poisoning that has taken place.
Today I had to leave the room. Compose myself. Then re-enter once the conversation had shifted, and sit in silence, smiling fakely, because apparently I’m insane.
I sit like a robot for 20 mins max, then leave the room again as it’s all I can tolerate, to sit with the innocently blind who believe everyone is “nice” and noone would want to hurt we, the “privileged” of humanity.
We are being harmed en masse.
Not everyone is so forthcoming with their ills.
They may realize that they ‘f’ed up, but can not back out now and still won’t admit the truth.
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